How was your break? Did you rest? Rejuvenate? Were you ready to hop back into your work or, if dread is too strong a word, were you wishing for just a few more days of rest?
The last days of December shocked me with a deep funk. Having ridden the exuberant wave created by time with both my children, an uplifting solstice, and my 21st wedding anniversary, I was hit hard when 2021’s coming to a close didn’t fill me with my usual bouts of creative thoughts, enthusiasm for new beginnings and excitement for the year ahead.
What makes the clouds clear for you? We all go through emotionally
challenging times when our mood doesn’t match our desires. Especially
when future plans have begun to spin an exciting list of ideas, sluggish
procrastination adds guilt to the mood and there’s not a shred of
incentive to be found. Digging out can be tough.
of my down moods has not generally been a choice for me. Throughout my
life. I’ve tended to push through, ignore, or grin and bear it…not
always silently; sometimes downright loud and demanding a change. Not my
proudest moments, but it’s honestly what usually happened.
Not this time. “I did what I knew. When I knew better, I did better.” **
So between last week at this time and now, I did better. Maybe you’ll resonate with my new relationship with a down mood and find some inspiration to help you the next time a funk moves in.
There were a few things I didn’t do, notable because they are tools I usually use for grounding or staying balanced.
By the end of the week, with the first of our fossilicious winter trips, I was feeling lighter and less troubled. I could feel myself slipping into moments of creative inspiration and getting revved up.
I feel like I’m back, but with a better-balanced and more secure me in the mix. I’m looking forward to getting to know her...and seeing what new things she’ll cook up in our life!
Happy New Year…indeed!
(Footnote). **Perhaps my favorite quote of all time in spite of my devotion to the wisdom of Dr. Montessori. These are Maya Angelou’s words.